Has anyone noticed how there's never a mention anymore of my treadmill, my stellar eating habits, or an exuberant proclamation of my most recent weight loss goal being met? Oh, no? That would be because I haven't stepped one toe onto that treadmill since October (at least I think it was October), and my eating has consisted of cookies and chocolate for snacks... and weight loss??? Um... we're gonna have to call it weight gain.
Yeah, I fell off the First Place wagon big time. Before you go feeling all sorry for me because it was the holidays, after all, I just can't blame the holidays.
I only have myself to blame. It all started when I made an allowance here and then one there. Next thing I knew, I didn't care anymore that I was eating sugar cookies and cupcakes at the carry-in dinners at church. I didn't care that I had to have just one more piece of birthday cake at my niece's party. It was a party, after all, and it was a big cake that needed to be eaten or it would go to waste. Shouldn't the goal be that a good time was had by all, which means eating as many baked goods as one can, so that they feel really good and had fun?
Well, not so fast, girl. Let's think about this. If I've learned anything in the last year, it's that discipline is good for me in ALL departments - physical, spiritual, mental and emotional. And I'm not just spitting out a First Place mantra here, okay? I've seen it worked out practically in my life. I just forgot. I'm really good about forgetting. You too?
The Christian life is all about discipline, that I will be sober minded, focused, able to discern the will of God. The baked goods have been weighing me down, becoming cumbersome, so much that I lost my focus and continued to make allowances. I forgot that being healthy is a choice of my will, not waiting for a special feeling that would make me stop dead in my tracks and drop that cake right into the trash can. Yeah, like THAT'S gonna happen!
So I'm back at it again, as of Saturday, making the choice with my will. I'm taking small steps by writing down everything I've eaten on my fact sheet and making good food choices. Since you all know now, I guess I better stay with it.