Life doesn't feel normal right now. And I won't cover it up... I'm worrying. A little. I like routine... and well... normalness.
The only thing that really feels normal to me is work and my coffee. Isn't that sad?
My sleep patterns are off. My food cravings are all over the place, and I'm entirely undisciplined. I've been feeling troubled over some personal things. My husband has pneumonia. I have felt headachey and blah off and on all week. And one of our good friends was hospitalized yesterday because they discovered he had suffered a mini stroke. Being in his early 40's, that was just a shocker.
It's really natural to look at the circumstances and feel discouraged. I'm trying to remember that God loves me, so much that Christ laid down His life for me. Why do I doubt that He knows what I need?
I am the good shepherd. I know my own and my own know me, just as the Father knows me and I know the Father; and I lay down my life for the sheep. John 10:14-15 (ESV)
I've been troubled lately, too. I realized I was off my game, so to speak. So last night, I came home, shut myself up in my room (I suppose that was pointless, my roommate didn't come home until late), and had a good long quiet time before I settled down for my regular routine. And then I slept a good long sleep. One thing I have to tell myself is one day at a time, one choice at a time. I need to choose right this time, not worry about living right in the big stuff over the long haul. That'll naturally come if I'm choosing right in the small things.
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Great verse... and it's so true. The times that we feel that way can be the hardest times to trust Him, but when we need to the most. You'll come through this!! He absolutely know and has what you need.
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~Tabitha~
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